Happy Easter!

Happy Easter 2024
I would like to wish each and everyone a blessed and Happy Easter.
As it would be, because of time schedules, my family gathered and celebrated Saturday evening. A great time was had with family, friends, food and much fun. I love a good celebration!
Today at my house, Easter Day, it is quiet, and as I am walking to get my daily steps… (I try to get at least 10,000 a day), I walk and listen to scriptures, sermons, prophetic speaking, say prayers and listen to Christian music.
As I was getting near my step goal the song, “How Great though art”, by Anthem came on. It has always been one of my favorite songs.
As many of you know, I wrote two children’s books and published them around and during the time of Covid.
I did okay with the first book,(Z the Zebra), as an unknown author, and am really proud of that book. The main character of the book is a little zebra born with rainbow colored spots that light up and change with his emotions. The story tells about the ups and downs of his emotions trying to figure out and deal with the reason why he was born with spots instead of stripes. Why was he so different than the other zebras?
The second book, (Z the Zebra Goes To Kindergarten), really accentuates the rainbow. I truly let God guide me on both books, but questioned why would he lead me this way at this time with all the conflicting publicity about the rainbow and what it stands for. I even at times wondered if I had been deceived because the second book has had a slow start.
I know in my heart and know deep down inside that God is good… he is always good and I am his child. I know he says he will not leave us or forsake us. I asked, more than once… “Why would you have me write that and publish it ?” … actually kind of afraid to promote it because of the rainbow on the front. Although I know in my heart, part of the reason is because God created the beautiful rainbow and he is very proud of his beautiful creation. I honestly have to say I love rainbows too and always have.
The rainbow stands for restoration, peace and it’s a promise from God.
As a new author, I did ask why I would begin to publish books, only to fall flat or at least it feels like that, right out of the gate.
I did not get my answer or clarification until today.
God said, as I was listening to, “How Great Thou Art”, (in the way he speaks in a persons spirit with his still soft voice), this book was not about any of the things you have been thinking…. I have been here all the time and it was me helping you all along to write those beautiful books. I had you write that second book because I love you and I want to help you heal. That sure got my attention!
I was told by my doctors after the birth of my second child that because of health issues, I should not have any more children. Fast forward 10 years and that same doctor thought I was healthy enough to try have another child. He remembered that I had always wanted three children and at that time I had two. I got pregnant and i was around twenty weeks when the baby’s heartbeat stopped. This was not the plan. I went into the hospital, never finding out the sex of the baby, the fetus was removed. I am not even sure what they do with the babies that don’t go full term. I believe they get buried somewhere, but I am not sure. This has really burdened my heart. I felt I needed to be strong for my family to help them, stuffing my own grief as best I could.
I was in shock while all this was going on, it just hurt so bad, I wanted it all to go away and be over. In hindsight, I wish I had been guided differently and had a proper burial, found out the sex, gave that baby a name and placed that little one in a spot I could go visit. My hope is that if anyone reading this has something like this happen to them, that this will help you make better decisions than I did.
As grief goes, it is the price you pay for loving so deeply. You may not even realize how much you love your child even before they are born.
I did get pregnant again shortly after and delivered a small but healthy baby girl, Kinzie. She is a rainbow baby! A baby born after a miscarriage, stillborn or death of a baby in the womb. Named so, to remind us that after the storm there is a rainbow, a symbol of hope.
God then let me know this sweet book had nothing to do with transgenderism or this world and all its stuff. It was a book dedicated and to honor my sweet baby that never made it to earth and is living up in heaven already and to celebrate the special gift I was given, my precious rainbow baby girl.
It is sure starting to make sense to me finally!!! The peace I found today runs deep. 
So with the clarity, I feel free and inspired to share this book and this story. This book has now taken on a whole new identity to me. I hope that if any of this resonates with you or touches you in a special way… you know you are not alone!
I am so grateful for all my children … their spouses and now grandchildren! They brighten my world in such a sweet way everyday!
Jesus loves you and I love you too! Thanks for reading and I would love to hear your story or comments! ❤️